I'm feeling a little bit on a downside lately, I don't know, things have been very unstable. I don't even know what went wrong, every little mistakes gets to me. I have a feeling that 2012 may not be a good year for me, but whatever, I'm going to make things work for me.
Sometimes, I wish I can just run away from reality, having to think about these problems. Things haven't been the same as before, I know there will always be changes, but then, let's brood on the positive side, I won't be able to live without it.
I know there'll be stiff changes that I may have to deal with, I know it's going to be hard to manage all this. My life isn't cheerful enough. In front of my family and friends, smiles and laughter are the things that they see, but within these four walls of my inner peace, tears would fall out anytime if I feel so weak. Sometimes, I wish I have someone that I could relate on, someone who would be there for me. I can't expect a lot, I know.
I just don't know how long I could be strong enough to face this issue.
I rest my case.