Assalamualaikum,
I'm feeling a little bit on a downside lately, I don't know, things have been very unstable. I don't even know what went wrong, every little mistakes gets to me. I have a feeling that 2012 may not be a good year for me, but whatever, I'm going to make things work for me.
Sometimes, I wish I can just run away from reality, having to think about these problems. Things haven't been the same as before, I know there will always be changes, but then, let's brood on the positive side, I won't be able to live without it.
I know there'll be stiff changes that I may have to deal with, I know it's going to be hard to manage all this. My life isn't cheerful enough. In front of my family and friends, smiles and laughter are the things that they see, but within these four walls of my inner peace, tears would fall out anytime if I feel so weak. Sometimes, I wish I have someone that I could relate on, someone who would be there for me. I can't expect a lot, I know.
I just don't know how long I could be strong enough to face this issue.
I rest my case.
Girl, I've been down that road a few times. Right when you need someone the most, it feels like either no one understands or no one cares. But!! You do. You obviously care about yourself because you go to college, you love your family I'm sure, and you love makeup which means you love yourself enough to want to make yourself look even more beautiful than you already are. Sometimes, when those four walls feel like they are falling in on you and everything is going wrong-it might be time for a change. It doesn't have to be a drastic one but let me give you an example. I was told once- if the road you are on is not going well, take a different road to the same place and the outcome will be different. Now, I had no idea what that meant- so I took it literal and took a different road to school everyday. Never taking the same road. I walked through different parts of school just to get to the same class instead of the easy fast way there. I even started my mornings different before leaving the house. Believe it or not, small things like that add up to big changes. Ok, before I keep rambling on- you have friend here who's willing to listen whenever you need it. =-) I hope you feel better soon.
ReplyDeleteAww, I'm so touched reading your encouragement and advice. I think I feel much better with you commenting and give motivation XX
DeleteHey love,
ReplyDeleteKeep your head up. I know we hardly know each other, but I think you're a wonderful person anyway. Life is unpredictable, and everyone will have their good moments, as well as their bad. It'll be hard, but just try to keep positive. When all this is over, you'll be proud to look back and know you were strong enough to make it through.
If you ever need someone to talk to, I'll be here. You can email me if you'd like. :)
<3 Melli
Melli, thanks, you're a wonderful person too <3
DeleteThanks for the motivation, the both of you touched me as I actually in turn have 2 wonderful friends who cares about me which is so sweet and unexpected <3