Random Ranting : It's an update of my personal life

Assalamualaikum pretty ladies!

I'm in the mood for one of those updates of my personal life, I hope it won't bore you girls, but I just need a medium to let it all out. 

I guess I can see that this year is a really tough one for me, I'm not saying the break up has affected me so much in a negative sense, but I've been through a lot of challenges of life, one of them would be the break up. But then, the biggest challenge of life I've ever encounter is that I have to repeat my semester, sigh. There goes a wasted year, I failed one of my units, although I've been given a second chance, I still failed again and it is something I just couldn't bear.

I've been always the one my family hopes for success, so I would have to wait for the next year (2014) to move to KL, this is just great. I'm not sure what will happen next. I do have a plan of what I'm going to do for the rest of the time while waiting for the semester that I have to repeat. It's a depressing year, I kept on having to calm my self down and soothe me, Allah does not give me success easily only because he has better plans for me, In Sha Allah.

Also, I am one to see a positive light in all this challenges. I've found someone, well, technically, I've rediscovered someone, LOL. There was a time, before I met and loved my current ex, I actually had a chance of getting to know this one guy, let's call him H for the time being, well we're still on the friend zone. I must say that I used to have a crush on him and I know that he has a crush on me, so both of us has a mutual liking.

I think he's "The One That Got Away" I seriously can't remember why I actually went on and dated my current ex instead of him, because there was a time where we were actually close, so close that it almost goes into a relationship zone. All is already in the past.

I've somehow rediscovered my crush for him and I still can't believe that after 2 years, there is still this lovey-dovey feeling for him. I'm not saying that I love him, honestly, I'm not sure. LOL. But yeah, believe it or not, we were in the same high school, same form sixth college and same university. A real touche is that, after I finished my form sixth, that's when I start to realize that he exists, that's when I have a chance to get to know him. LOL. 

There should have been a chance or two that I would meet and get to know him from high school to form sixth. That's like 7 years of chances to get to know him, but then we didn't. I guess in a way, I'm glad that we didn't because when I was a teenager I am kinda judgemental, I judge the book from the cover itself, if I can't see anything exciting on the exterior, I won't read it or in this case, I won't have any interest to be friends with him. LOL.

But anyways, I hope there would be a chance for us, I won't bore you with anymore details, but um, he's a blessing in disguise, I mean I didn't tell him about my problems because I don't want him to think that I'm just loading off of him but he's a guy I would force my parents to meet. He's a real nice guy :)