Assalamualaikum pretty ladies!
I am on a role here as I've actually post a rant on my personal Facebook account cuz I am a little bit pissed off with this one particular guy who has every bit of intention of wanting to get to know me better. I don't know why, I know I've gone through a very messy breakup and yes, I was a little passive that time about my breakup as I was actually busy with exams and assignments, so the hurting didn't felt so terrible.
But as time goes, I'm currently on my 3-months semester break here, so of course, I'd be having a lot of free time, I've decided not to work as I felt that I do need a real good break as last year I actually kept myself busy with temporary but awesome job during my 3-months semester break and also I've actually worked on an internship that doesn't give us the privilege of a month's holiday plus the week that we're supposed to have a break before the currently finished semester starts, I've used that week to actually enter a crash course onto IT-related stuffs.
Since there's a lot of free time, that's when my heart decided to actually have a mental breakdown or two, or maybe five to six times in the past couple of months, nothing serious but just couldn't get over the breakup, as I've actually thought of him as a family and a bestfriend apart from a lover. Cuz we've been through a lot of things and it kills me that he's not going to be a part of my life anymore and it kills me that I've been missing him so much as both our family has actually assumed this going to last as marriage, so therefore I had high hopes on marrying him.
So anyhow, I've been single, I've actually went out with a guy, although I like him but I still consider him as close friends, but then I don't really have high hopes on him but hopefully it goes well. And I've actually gone out with a couple of guys after that, just out of boredom. Then, I met this guy on Facebook, we've chatted for a month then realized there were lots of coincidental things that are between us, i.e he's a co-worker in my dad's office and etc. Brunei Darussalam is a very small country you are likely to know almost everyone.
So anyways, I've always been upfront about my feelings, whenever I have this sad and moody situation, I would post about it on Facebook. Then this guy asks me of my well-being, no offense but I appreciate his gesture. But the next thing he does was what pissed me off. He actually advice me that I should be in contact with my ex and get back with him, but here's the more funny thing about the situation, I hardly even asked him for advice, let alone discussed about my breakup with him.
I kinda felt annoyed that he didn't even really think that he crossed the limit or the barrier of where he goes with my personal life, I admit, I am sensitive with my privacy, there are things that people can or can't discuss with me when it comes to my personal life. So of course, he was just being annoying and busybody up my arse and talk about how I should do this or that about the breakup.
Another thing I was annoyed about is that, he didn't even stop to think what kind of girl I am. Woohoo, he made that stupid mistake of not knowing how I would react to his so-called "caring" gesture. Cuz I'm not as weak as other girls that might have crossed his path, I am recovering from my breakup with my ex, but I don't need people to actually advice me on what to do with my breakup but that doesn't even have ANYTHING to do with my situation. I appreciate other people's advice when I posted about the break up a few months ago, I really do, cuz the advice you readers gave to me is inspiring and all of you understand what I was going through. But this guy? I don't think he understands what I'm going through and he gets all cocky and say "Hey, I think you should be asking for reconciliation with your ex, cuz you kept on posting things about him"
Okay, I've been posting quotes about my ex, cuz I remembered and cherished the memories that I've built with him so that does NOT mean I wanted to go back with him!
AAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGHHHHH!
Okay sorry for that long mad post.. I think I'd better chill out and cool down this anger. But I just don't get it that he's testing my patience in the month of Ramadhan, how dense can he be?!
So anyways, I've always been upfront about my feelings, whenever I have this sad and moody situation, I would post about it on Facebook. Then this guy asks me of my well-being, no offense but I appreciate his gesture. But the next thing he does was what pissed me off. He actually advice me that I should be in contact with my ex and get back with him, but here's the more funny thing about the situation, I hardly even asked him for advice, let alone discussed about my breakup with him.
I kinda felt annoyed that he didn't even really think that he crossed the limit or the barrier of where he goes with my personal life, I admit, I am sensitive with my privacy, there are things that people can or can't discuss with me when it comes to my personal life. So of course, he was just being annoying and busybody up my arse and talk about how I should do this or that about the breakup.
Another thing I was annoyed about is that, he didn't even stop to think what kind of girl I am. Woohoo, he made that stupid mistake of not knowing how I would react to his so-called "caring" gesture. Cuz I'm not as weak as other girls that might have crossed his path, I am recovering from my breakup with my ex, but I don't need people to actually advice me on what to do with my breakup but that doesn't even have ANYTHING to do with my situation. I appreciate other people's advice when I posted about the break up a few months ago, I really do, cuz the advice you readers gave to me is inspiring and all of you understand what I was going through. But this guy? I don't think he understands what I'm going through and he gets all cocky and say "Hey, I think you should be asking for reconciliation with your ex, cuz you kept on posting things about him"
Okay, I've been posting quotes about my ex, cuz I remembered and cherished the memories that I've built with him so that does NOT mean I wanted to go back with him!
AAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGHHHHH!
Okay sorry for that long mad post.. I think I'd better chill out and cool down this anger. But I just don't get it that he's testing my patience in the month of Ramadhan, how dense can he be?!
i feel you. Used to be a sobber when my ex decided to end our relationship almost 5 years ago. He was my first guy I ever dated but I didn't get the chance to go out with him. haha. The whole family know about us since I told them. The young me obviously didn't see what was coming at that time. *sigh.
ReplyDeleteI literally took a year off without a guy in my life. No guy in my dictionary. It was hard cuz that was my first time "loving" someone and my first break up too. Age moves with time and so do my maturity. Now, looking back, I always thought that there are reasons for the break up. I managed to take a step out of my circle and view from different perspective. Alhamdulillah. I'm all good right now. Guy isn't necessarily my priority for the time being. I'll just wait for the perfect one to be the one whom I call a husband. I put my faith in Allah and found peace and serenity.
It's hard I know but don't worry. You'll get over it one fine day. Wake up with a little piece of him in your memory and just smile that he (atleast) used to make you a happy and feel special and not as enemy. InsyaAllah.. be strong. :)